A Poem for Katie

[Aunty Em]

Tomorrow is my daughter's 18th birthday... the day she would have become an adult. I wrote this poem yesterday to put in a card on her grave and thought I'd share it with you all.

For Katie

So many tears have fallen
within these last few years,
I felt my heart was broken
nothing could heal the tears,
but somewhere in the darkness,
that mass of pain and sorrow,
a little voice was saying
"All will be well tomorrow."

For the memory of your grace,
your gentle loving heart,
has given me the strength,
to make a brand new start,
so although I cannot hug you
because we are apart
you live, my precious angel,
forever in my heart.

 

[tonksy]

Happy birthday, Katie

*Big hug for Auntie*

 

[unclehobart]

*raises a pint*

 

[kuulani]

happy birthday to a special young woman!
*hugs*

 

[TexasRaceLady]

You have great strength, Aunty Em. Your Katie would have become a strong young woman.

(((HUGS)))

 

[Aunty Em]

Thanks for all your replies. I've spent the day on my own just pottering around the house.

It's really been a day of reflection for me, to look back over my life, see where I've been, where I want to go and how I'm going to get there. A time for reorganisation and a remaking of commitments for the future.

I haven't done a lot of the things I thought I would or felt how I thought I would. I do feel like there's a line been drawn between the past and the future. To me Katie is still very much alive in my home and in many of the things that I do. I'm a better, stronger person for having known her and I know that I will at times get upset, but that's to be expected. I just need to make these quiet times when I can sit and reflect and then go on.