Damn does life get you down sometimes 
A couple of hours ago i was really happy, probably more happy than i have been in a while. My (kinda) ex boyfriend was coming to visit me this thursday and staying til the following tuesday. It had been booked and planned for a little under a month and it had me over the moon. Well until he called me earlier..
I could really do with help in a few areas of my life, i don't know who to ask, i don't have friends i can see as i have a condition that restricts me to the house alot of the time, my 'friends' are too immature to handle what it is so i stay away from them. I'm 16 and havent been to school in about 2years due to this condition and a few other things i wont go into much, to sum it up..bad boyfriends. Since i left school I was depressed alot of the time, i didn't like the thing i had, i hated not being able to be 'normal' and go out and have fun with mates and just do the other normal things teenagers did. I admit depression had been lurking round me for a good few years due to my family situation, violent father, divorce, death of two close relatives and heh bad boyfriends among other things. So I've decided to try asking the users on this board as you are all among the best community online i have ever seen, very friendly,extremely relaxed and mature
After spending so much time away from friends and the 'real world' you might say, i don't have alot of confidence, never really have but its worse now. Last year i spent a lot of time online, and inadvertently met my soon to be boyfriend. I had a virus and was chatting to my msn friend about how to get rid of it, he brought a guy he knew to be good at computers to me and him and i kicked it off from there, from the start we clicked and well.. fell in love. Now..teens and relationships...not the most reliable things on earth are they (he was 17 but very mature) and ours didn't look too hopeful, living countries apart and all... He lived in London and I in northern Ireland, but we were infatuated with each other, and literally only parted in the day to sleep, every minute of the awake day we were together, on the phone or online. So we finally got together (a birthday visit) after 5months of not meeting, and still we got on like a house on fire. Eventually we couldn't take the distance, it was killing us. He asked me to come over and live with him and after fighting with my family alot i finally did.
So after 7months we were finally together in his house with his parents (who were fine with it) It took alot to be together, my family were against the whole thing (my father even hauled me away to a shrink in the hope i would be diagonsed with something so it would be legal to make me stay, i got thru it ok) His ex girlfriend was causing trouble my bf got rid of her after her current bf sent a few death threats to my man. An internet guy i knew and who was close to stirred up some jealous feelings with my bf, they came to blows and nearly cost me the whole relationship, i found out my boyfriend was cheating with a close friend of his that had been going on for 4years!! My boyfriend claims it as abuse yet im uncertain as he still has the friend with him everyday :/ We got past that, then when we were together his family had doubts over me and didn't want me around the father who had cancer (yet the man himself was fine with it) my boyfriend begged me to fight his family with him, and so we did. His father sadly passed away a few months ago and since then my boyfriend has changed his behaviour to a typical schizophrenic. He claimed we weren't working out andthat he wanted to lead the normal teenage life i.e sex..lots of it, with different girls. He was like that one day and would be totally loving the next Eventually he broke up with me after spinning some story to his mother about me (he was angry) that wasn't true which pretty much left me VERY unwelcome, so i left. Back home, hating the fact everyone would be saying ''told you so''
For some reason I'm still in contact with him, i still love him dearly, and live for the days he loves me back (which are every two days) but i'm worried about his behaviour. When he's normal he says he loves me but hes scared, he knows his heads messed up and needs me to help him, but as soon as i hang up and the next call comes the following day hes mr nasty again And now he's just blown off the trip for thursday, saying i have to come down to london, to HIM if i want to see him... he also wants us to act as if nothing has changed...meaning he wants blowjobs and sex... i told him i didn't want to do that stuff and he got huffy and said there's no point of a trip then as we'll 'be bored' most of the time without it. Yet the other night he told me if i was with him all he would want is a cuddle, no sex just comfort... i love him so want to help him, but i'm totally confused by his behaviour im scared i wont be able to
Please if anyone knows anything or has any advise, im in desperate need!
A couple of hours ago i was really happy, probably more happy than i have been in a while. My (kinda) ex boyfriend was coming to visit me this thursday and staying til the following tuesday. It had been booked and planned for a little under a month and it had me over the moon. Well until he called me earlier..I could really do with help in a few areas of my life, i don't know who to ask, i don't have friends i can see as i have a condition that restricts me to the house alot of the time, my 'friends' are too immature to handle what it is so i stay away from them. I'm 16 and havent been to school in about 2years due to this condition and a few other things i wont go into much, to sum it up..bad boyfriends. Since i left school I was depressed alot of the time, i didn't like the thing i had, i hated not being able to be 'normal' and go out and have fun with mates and just do the other normal things teenagers did. I admit depression had been lurking round me for a good few years due to my family situation, violent father, divorce, death of two close relatives and heh bad boyfriends among other things. So I've decided to try asking the users on this board as you are all among the best community online i have ever seen, very friendly,extremely relaxed and mature
After spending so much time away from friends and the 'real world' you might say, i don't have alot of confidence, never really have but its worse now. Last year i spent a lot of time online, and inadvertently met my soon to be boyfriend. I had a virus and was chatting to my msn friend about how to get rid of it, he brought a guy he knew to be good at computers to me and him and i kicked it off from there, from the start we clicked and well.. fell in love. Now..teens and relationships...not the most reliable things on earth are they (he was 17 but very mature) and ours didn't look too hopeful, living countries apart and all... He lived in London and I in northern Ireland, but we were infatuated with each other, and literally only parted in the day to sleep, every minute of the awake day we were together, on the phone or online. So we finally got together (a birthday visit) after 5months of not meeting, and still we got on like a house on fire. Eventually we couldn't take the distance, it was killing us. He asked me to come over and live with him and after fighting with my family alot i finally did.
So after 7months we were finally together in his house with his parents (who were fine with it) It took alot to be together, my family were against the whole thing (my father even hauled me away to a shrink in the hope i would be diagonsed with something so it would be legal to make me stay, i got thru it ok) His ex girlfriend was causing trouble my bf got rid of her after her current bf sent a few death threats to my man. An internet guy i knew and who was close to stirred up some jealous feelings with my bf, they came to blows and nearly cost me the whole relationship, i found out my boyfriend was cheating with a close friend of his that had been going on for 4years!! My boyfriend claims it as abuse yet im uncertain as he still has the friend with him everyday :/ We got past that, then when we were together his family had doubts over me and didn't want me around the father who had cancer (yet the man himself was fine with it) my boyfriend begged me to fight his family with him, and so we did. His father sadly passed away a few months ago and since then my boyfriend has changed his behaviour to a typical schizophrenic. He claimed we weren't working out andthat he wanted to lead the normal teenage life i.e sex..lots of it, with different girls. He was like that one day and would be totally loving the next Eventually he broke up with me after spinning some story to his mother about me (he was angry) that wasn't true which pretty much left me VERY unwelcome, so i left. Back home, hating the fact everyone would be saying ''told you so''
For some reason I'm still in contact with him, i still love him dearly, and live for the days he loves me back (which are every two days) but i'm worried about his behaviour. When he's normal he says he loves me but hes scared, he knows his heads messed up and needs me to help him, but as soon as i hang up and the next call comes the following day hes mr nasty again
And now he's just blown off the trip for thursday, saying i have to come down to london, to HIM if i want to see him... he also wants us to act as if nothing has changed...meaning he wants blowjobs and sex... i told him i didn't want to do that stuff and he got huffy and said there's no point of a trip then as we'll 'be bored' most of the time without it. Yet the other night he told me if i was with him all he would want is a cuddle, no sex just comfort... i love him so want to help him, but i'm totally confused by his behaviour im scared i wont be able to Please if anyone knows anything or has any advise, im in desperate need!
